Songs that Speak

I'm not a Christian music listener.  Just a fact.  But I stumbled across some songs that I liked this week.  All were encouraging.  One was more painful than the others, but all are good.  Still in a dark place in our lives.  I'm grateful.  I see and hear of people in situations that really put ours in perspective, but we don't see past our own reality very long.  So I find myself coming back to myself again.  God isn't writing letters to me across the sky.  Sometimes I ask Him why He left.  Why isn't He moving?  If that hurts your feelings and makes me sound unspiritual, read Psalms or Job.  It's not really a conversation between me and you anyway.  He doesn't seem to mind.  I've never been in a more difficult place.  I wish, I wish, I wish...but we're still here.  And there must be a reason.  Sage is doing great.  I just drive myself crazy.  I guess that's because I'm managing 90% of it.  I couldn't begin to explain how complex it all is, but I'd like someone to understand so I can at least have a baby before I take it over again.  I'm sure that will happen.

This first song is a song that Luke introduced me to this week.  This girl is pretty amazing, and it's a style I really like and would consider to be like my own...just probably not as good as she can, but it's nice to listen to.



This next one is one I heard in the car yesterday.  I'm not sure I'm here yet.  I can't bear the thought of Him not coming through.  Of just waiting till eternity to be perfected.  But...I guess it's like the 3 Hebrew boys.  Our God is fully able to deliver us from the fire.  But even if He doesn't, we still won't bow down to you.  I don't have any other choice.  There just isn't any other option for me.  The place of waiting is an uncomfortable one.  It's a very lonely one.  But this is the current, not the permanent.  So I remind myself again and again.



And I found this one, too, I forgot about.  This is probably my favorite right now.  It's just right for that in between place...where you don't know the end from the beginning.  But assurance that you won't drown in the midst of it.