Disconnection

I was chatting with someone today, and they made the comment that they felt "disconnected." Without thinking, I said, "I always feel disconnected." I wasn't sad about it. I wasn't pitying myself. Actually, I'm perfectly okay with it. Granted, I do have friends, but due to something called "life," we're not running around together everyday. This is true of everyone, I know. I enjoy my own company more than anyone else. I'm quite sure of this. I think I can finally say that I'm at a point in my life where I'm okay with me: take it or leave it. And as far as friendships go, if I'm having to "work" at it like a marriage or a disagreement with a family member on a regular basis, then it's no good. I'm not doing it. Friendships should require time and effort, but I'm not going to wonder all the time if I hurt them or what I did to make them mad. Please.

Another peeve: myspace, facebook...internet in general. Blogs even. I'm usually (especially on myspace) very light, easygoing, whatever. I put "lonely" as my mood one day, and someone said it was "uncharacteristic" of me because I was always so happy. I don't nor will I ever bare my deepest issues on myspace or a blog. If you need to know, I'll let you know. If you'd like my personal opinion, here are things that people don't need to know via blog.

• marital spats (do I really need to explain this? come on, keep it between you two or a therapist. I put this here because I've SEEN this in blogs.)
• financial issues (No one cares! It is tacky too. Enough said.)
• pet peeves of your family that go beyond humor (if it makes your spouse or children look bad, don't say it. We all know that husbands {NEVER WIVES} and children can get on our nerves. Don't shed your family in a bad light, especially children.)
  

That's just my opinion though. The thing about blogs are that you can write whatever you want. This blog sounds slightly mean and cynical, but it's totally not intended or written with that intent. I guess if anything is disconnected, it's this blog. Ha. Holla!

I Hate Her

Ha, not really! Never, but I just think this is one of the best pictures I've ever seen. Chrissie looks like a movie star here, though she denies it. This is 30 weeks with baby number THREE. I wouldn't dare put this on 3 years after the ONE child I've had. Oh well, I'll relish in her and be slightly jealous.

Change is Coming

After watching old streaming archives of church services, I've decided on two things:

1. I am losing weight.
2. My hair will be blonde again in the very near future.

A Little of This, A Little of That

A few random thoughts/updates:

• I had dinner with someone the other night, that if you'd told me that I was going to 3 years ago, I would have laughed in your face. Not only did I do this, but I enjoyed it. We have known each other for several years, but there has always been slight friction between us. I hope last night was the bridge over that. I choose to believe it was.

• After discussing anything mildly deep with anyone, I always wonder if I just screwed myself. With that said, any relationship you have is a risk. I'm coming to this realization and trying to not care and have my guard up so much. No risks=no relationships, which is just not liveable for me.

• I took Chanel for her first walk/run through the neighborhood yesterday since her accident before Christmas. I took MY first walk/run through the neighborhood EVER without someone or something physically chasing me. I'm just not a runner. She probably did better than me. It was a good effort though.

• Our choir is going to China Luck tomorrow night, and I'm actually going (so far). We've had a few functions before just to hang out outside of rehearsal, but I never go. I also never participate in anything that has "China" and "Luck" together in it, but I'm working on coming across like the nice person that I really am. Here's hoping. :)

• We're recording a CD this week. It's not going to be sold world-wide or anything, but it will be a current CD of us to sell at the church. This is cool to me because the last one was done way before I got there. We start laying vocals down this Thursday. I'm excited about this!

• There are few things I love more than a good nap in the floor. We have 4 beds and 4 couches in this house, but I will pass them all up for the floor. I don't really know why.

That is all for now.

HO-TEL, MO-TEL, Holiday INN

For the past two days, Sage has been (what looks like to me) throwing up signs...hahaha. I have NO clue why or WHERE she got that from. I asked her and she said "nonni." West Side, Mom.

Keepin' it real.
Represent.

A Work in Progress

I'm pretty excited about this playroom thing that's been happening! We've had this room sitting for 3 years. Travis didn't really want to do anything with it, which I understood. In the meantime, our family room had toys everywhere. Recently, Travis swayed his opinion and has even been helping me. We turned the bed sideways, making it into somewhat of a couch. But it still allows people to stay here.

This room used to be the family room in the original setup of the house, which is why it has a fireplace. They converted the garage into a family room, turning this into another master suite. Two bathrooms were added, including a jacuzzi tub...which is again, never used. I've been cleaning out the room and the bathroom, making this into a nice little "pad" for Miss Sage. She is loooving it. Granted, we still have work to do...finding some place to store his bikes, adding more storage....but for now, it has come a long way.

She can cook, rock, draw, put her babies to bed, and relax all at the same time.
Modified "daybed" equals even more playroom.
Check out that tub! This is the only room in the house that Travis has NOT painted. If I could post some "before" pics when we first bought this house....oh wow. Each room was painted the ugliest color you could EVER put inside a house. Think peach, orange, WHITE with nineties wallpaper....it makes me cringe to think about it.

For Your Laughing Pleasure

This is a pic from my 10th grade show choir show. They picked the BEST outfits for us to wear. Actually, this was the best of the worst really. Caitlyn and I were, of course, the best. Look how amazing we looked.

Dance Party

For the past several weeks/months, I've slowly been transitioning what used to be a bedroom into Sage's playroom. It's a huge room that will perfectly suit her MANY toys. While cleaning it out this morning, I found a Kids Bop CD circa 1998. Let me tell you, there is nothing like hearing "Oops I did it again," "All Star," and "What a girl wants" redone by children. So Sage and I have been dancing it up this morning. What's funny is that while bee-bopping to the music, she has been rocking on her rocking horse. I used to the do the same thing when I was little--listen to music for hours and rock on my horse until I'd fall asleep. I doubt the latter will happen with her, but here's to a new room and lots of fun.

Not in the mood

Sorry, I just haven't felt like blogging. :(

We be strokin'

Saturday, April 5th, is Chrissie's birthday, so Kelli and I wanted to do something fun and special. There's a place in Birmingham called "Sips n Strokes." This is by far one of the coolest places to go. You bring your own wine (we actually brought that and an entire spread of food) and they supply the canvas, paint, and instruction on the picture that is for that night. It's a different piece each time. We had a blast. It had been a while since we all got together--too long. It was interesting to see how different our pictures all turned out. The teacher, of course, kept commenting on how amazing we were. She actually called us "The Rockstar Table." Hey if the shoe fits....

By the way, I'm Libba.

You need JUST a bit right here.
Look at Libba's work. Amazing. The teacher has asked me to teach the next class.
She's okay too. KIDDING.
The finished product! Beautiful!
Libba and the Birthday girl!
Awww!
Beautiful Kaci and I.
And you can't end without a goodnight kiss!

Picasa Fun

I heard about a free photo editing shop online called picasa. You can create some pretty cool effects with your pics. I'm still new to it all, but here is what I've started out with

Redeemer

This is me singing "Redeemer" at the 11 service yesterday. I was really sick, really nervous, and singing a song I didn't choose. It's a beautiful song, but it's a bit high for me. I know now that it wasn't about me and what I could do because God really strengthened me, and I think it was a beautiful service all around. So, here you go.