I don't really know why I'm writing this because I'm pretty certain no one reads this anymore. Maybe it's my last page here...and that closure is something I need while this has sat untouched for so many years. Before social media took the world by storm, I started this blog as a way to keep my family connected to me and my immediate family in Alabama. It was also a bit of creative outlet for me. As instagram and facebook grew, I let the blog go...but one person never got into all of that...but did stay present here. That was my dad. He'd ask me when I'd visit if I'd ever pick it up again. I felt bad...but it was time I didn't really have, but then I realized we were running out of time. So I stayed up late and figured out how to do this from my phone in a last ditch effort to let him in.
I frantically filled this blog for the first time in years a few months ago with all I could before I passed out from the exhaustion of the day. I think it meant something to him. I couldn't say that I was doing it strictly for him because I knew his time was short. That seemed cruel...but I knew it. "It's no secret that the both of us are running out of time." He is gone now. It was fast. For some reason tonight, my last ditch efforts came back to my mind, and I came to this page. And I wanted to say goodbye to it. I'll still write, but it won't be here. I have things to say. But for today, this is goodbye.
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