is sometimes the best day. Not that I can say that the day is over seeing that it's not even noon, but I am thankful for the feeling of lethargy right now. That may seem weird to say, but I was on panic attack edge for a week straight, so to feel mellow is reeeal good. I found a small bump on my hip on New Year's Eve, and it freaked me out. I really believe it was spiritual--New Year's Eve--to start the new year with fear. I don't know if you noticed, but there has been a change in my tune before I found that--a transformation.
I made a dr's appointment for the day after New Year's. Fighting between my faith to know the Lord was taking care of me and the fear that wouldn't leave was not fun. Faith always wins though. So anyway, to get in the dr's office that day, I had to see an intern, who was, let me say, CRAZY. If I hadn't been half sick with nerves, I would have laughed. I actually did laugh/cry later. After trying to talk about my life history and possibly diagnose something else, he goes to get help. MY doctor came in, and he too, "had never really seen anything like it." Fear escalates.
However, in my heart, I knew that it was okay. Not just "no matter what," it's okay, but OKAY. Am I making sense? I did make an appointment with a surgeon so that they could take it out, biopsy, whatever. Anyway, the surgeon was yesterday, and HE walked in and out in less than 5 minutes saying, "Honey, that's a cyst, a harmless blood clot that formed where you hit it (which I do often). It's perfectly fine. I promise you that it's nothing to worry about. Leave it alone or it will get bigger. I'd do the same thing if it were me or my wife." Relief. Praise. Sing. Dance. Live! :)
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