The Difference

If you've been on facebook, this picture isn't new, but I think this is the first time that I've turned my laptop on in a month. :) Look at the difference in Sage in one month. Travis could have cried seeing that picture on the left. This is from our beach trip in July, and the one on the right is about a month later. Travis said, "Why didn't God tell us, 'Hey, look at your kid. She's starving.'?" I said, "He DID. Because you know how most people realize there's a problem? Their child passes out or goes into a coma. OR at the least goes into ICU." He most certainly did tell us. I'm so grateful for her health that is PROSPERING in the midst of an ugly illness. Just to educate a little, because I knew nothing about diabetes and the majority doesn't either, let me give just a brief overview of what's happening. For whatever reason, which we know is evil, Sage's own body began attacking itself and destroying the insulin producing beta cells of the pancreas. Insulin opens up the cells so that food/sugar can get into the cells and be used for energy. Without it, the sugar stays in the blood stream, creating high blood sugars and, eventually, sickness...and even more eventually death. Sage was essentially starving because her cells couldn't use the sugar from food for energy. She's not eating more. Her body is able to use the food because it's now getting the insulin it needs. Without insulin, she would die. This is serious. And it's not right.

I don't plan on all of my posts being about diabetes. Don't worry about that. But it's certainly something we are walking through right now. Again, I say through. My stance on it will not change. This isn't lifelong for us. This isn't going to run through our family. Because you know why? God's word tells me it is NOT. And His word is so powerful that if He said that the sky was purple, it would change before your very eyes. There is everything in God's word to tell me that this isn't going to last. Would you like a few? I thought so. Psalms 103 "He heals your diseases--every one!"

You know what else He does? Psalms 103:6 "God makes everything come out RIGHT, He puts victims back on their feet." Diabetes...it's just not right. Psalms 103 says "God's love is ever and always, eternally present to all who fear Him, making everything right for them as their children as they follow his Covenant ways and remember to do whatever He said."

Isaiah 54:11-17
^11-17"Afflicted city, storm-battered, unpitied:
I'm about to rebuild you with stones of turquoise,
Lay your foundations with sapphires,
construct your towers with rubies,
Your gates with jewels,
and all your walls with precious stones.
All your children will have God for their teacher—
what a mentor for your children!
You'll be built solid, grounded in righteousness,
far from any trouble—nothing to fear!
far from terror—it won't even come close!
If anyone attacks you,
don't for a moment suppose that I sent them,
And if any should attack,
nothing will come of it.
I create the blacksmith
who fires up his forge
and makes a weapon designed to kill.
I also create the destroyer—
but no weapon that can hurt you has ever been forged.
Any accuser who takes you to court
will be dismissed as a liar.
This is what God's servants can expect.
I'll see to it that everything works out for the best."
God's Decree.


Nothing is going to come of diabetes. It just can't last. Some people, particularly those that seem to know someone closely with type 1, almost ignore me when I say these things. I don't understand that. But I also don't care. SOME...well, one I'm going to steer clear of like I would a stomach virus, almost revels in her grandson's blood sugars and dealing with this mess. My identity, nor Sage's identity, nor ANY of our identities are found in a disease. What is that? I can actually understand trying to find it in income or clothing or even drugs....but a sickness? Give me a break. Jesus is just the best thing out there. He WORKS. He fulfills. He cannot fail. He backed these promises up with His own flawless name, and I believe nothing less than what His word says. My stance on it won't change. So yes, ask me how Sage is doing. She's doing great! I appreciate that. But the best thing you can do is speak these very words over her because they are working and changing a very unpleasant current reality. I can promise you that.

So we step praise: Her sickness makes her healing. You don't experience healing without sickness. I'm so thankful that my pancreas WORKS. You don't think about those things. I'm thankful that I spent years of my life looking at food and measuring it...cause guess what? It's not something I had to learn on top of everything else for this time. That part was easy! Thanks, devil, for that. I learned a little something. I'm thankful I have the ability to learn all of these math problems to figure out how much insulin she needs. I'm thankful for discernment that goes outside of a book to say what I should really do on a given day for her. I'm thankful that I'm learning how to cook a little bit. I made a roast. Miracles abound. I'm thankful that Travis is working a lot and for good parents who are willing to help and being blessed with provision to pay for all of it. I'm thankful that I am a little obsessive when it comes to routine and organization. We have to be right now. I am full of gratitude because God, in all of His wisdom, saw hardship coming and already gave me what I'd need to get through it. Try it.

Until then...we continue to press.